About Me.

I guess this should of been my first post but whateverrr :)
Right well first of all, I'm not saying my name, I like to keep it mysterious :p haha!

I am 18 years old and 19 in May. I think my life has dramatically improved since turning 18. I think it's because I can socialise more, sounds bad but the best places to go are pubs and clubs whether you're drinking or not. It's warm, nice people and pretty damn safe!

I'm also currently living in Plymouth studying sociology with psychology. I really love the course and I do really enjoy being at uni. I think it's hard to fully enjoy constantly, I miss my friends back home waaay too much, I miss my mum's wonderful cooking, and I also miss my ickle doggy. :)

I am still trying to decide if uni was the biggest mistake or biggest opportunity. I know it's good in the sense; I have learnt to live by myself, to survive without being supported by friends. But also I know parts of me are worse of for coming. I feel more judged and I feel constantly on trial for the people around me.

It took me long enough back home to finally grow attached to the friends I found and they became my life. The sad thing is I think most of them are really drifting away, which scares me because I love them so much and I have no idea what i'd be without who they made me and how the stuck by me, but I guess I had to come out to the big wide world one day.

I feel a bit underestimated and undervalued at uni, my friends at home adored me and nowadays I'm more seen as: 'the downer' or 'the one that is always in his room'. Granted, that both those facts are usually true, but it's only because I feel alone and I really need friends that realise this and come to my rescue, but I'm slowly learning that I have to start to rescue myself.

I think i stand to need changes. I am a bit harsh with my sense of humour, recently it nearly lost me one of the closest friends I made at uni. He's easily one of the best people I have ever met. I could commit a murder and he'd stand by me and help me bury the body. (Just so you know I wouldn't actually commit a murder...) He's one of the most loyal friends I have and I have barely known him six months. I don't understand why he looks out for me so much, but I seriously doubt without him I wouldn't be at uni anymore.

Hmmm well this blog is dragging on a bit isn't it? I doubt anyone read this far haha but if you did kudos to you! it's officially 6am! The second day in a row I have been awake for the sunrise! I'm sure I'll find something to complain about soon!